new mercies after compromise

five minute friday: compromise

I drank the wine. I ate the cookie. I had told Him I would not. I compromised the fast He called me to. I listened and gave in to what my flesh wanted rather than clinging to the Holy One who never compromises His word, His truth or, thankfully, His steadfast love.

The Lord calls us to perfection. “Be perfect as I am perfect.” He knows we cannot come close. “He remembers we are dust.”

So why the high standard?

Lord, I am going to fail You every time. This flesh is so weak and this world is so strong, and on I go with my ten thousand excuses.

It’s not until I get still before Him. Ashamed of failing Him, yet again. Then He comes, by His grace, with His word and assures me, reminds me, of hesed.

It is the Hebrew word that is permanently on my wrist in dark ink. It is a beautiful and strong Hebrew word often translated in our Bible as steadfast love, kindness and faithfulness. It is the lifeline reminder to which I cling when I fail Him. Which is often.

The 40 day fast* I am walking through reminded me this very morning of John, the revelator, in Revelation 10:8-10 where he is told by the voice from heaven, “‘Go take the scroll that is open in the hand of the angel who is standing on the sea and on the land.’ So [he] went to the angel and told him to give [him] the little scroll. And he said to [John], ‘Take and eat it; it will make your stomach bitter, but in your mouth it will be sweet as honey.'”

The word is sweet but mingled with bitter. How can that be that it would make his stomach bitter? I felt it along with John this morning as I sat before the Lord, Bible open and sin exposed.

Bitterness if the result of something taken in that does not agree with you. The Holy and True can’t ever agree with the sinfulness inside. It will never agree with my compromise. It will never agree with my sin. My response is a churning soul that no Pepto can soothe.

But the word of God, it isn’t just bitterness but sweetness. It comes with healing and grace and hesed, to reach those places that pull on my temptations to be filled with the temporary rather than the eternal.

Fresh mercies today. New hesed for a new day. Confess and repent of compromises and reach with me for the eternal.


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18 thoughts on “new mercies after compromise

  1. You must be doing the 40-day Sugar Fast? With Wendy Speake? Wonderful post. Hesed – love that. I have GAKAT on my wrist in very bold serif’d letters: God Already Knew About This! Your neighbor at FMF #5

    1. yes! this is my 3rd go around with Wendy’s fast and I LOVE it!! Have you ever done it?
      Also, I love that “GAKAT”!! great reminder!!

  2. I’m reminded of 2 Corinthians 12:9: But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

    Allow your weakness to be a part of your testimony, so that God will use even this to further His kingdom. Blessings.

  3. Your words, ‘ten thousand excuses’, kinda haunted me, and inspired this sonnet. I hope you like it.

    Ten thousand poor excuses,
    ten thousand times to fail,
    ten thousand “What’s the use?” – es,
    and then He posts my bail.
    I cannot understand the ‘why’,
    He knows my misdirection
    even when I really try,
    yet calls me to perfection.
    If there something I can’t see
    the He sees in my heart?
    Is there something more to me,
    and can I make a start
    if I resolve to take His Hand,
    and before walking, learn to stand?

  4. I have read Wendy’s book and participated in one of the 40 day sugar fasts which she does. It may not have been easy, but it was so worth the effort! Grateful for the grace He offers each and every day!

  5. I did the 40-Day Sugar Fast back in January. It was hard but it was so worth it! Thank you for sharing your journey. His mercies are new every morning, what an incredible encouragement!

    Love,
    Annie

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