“Write,” He whispered to my heart. Lord, after all these years?Nearly five years of silence…the rebellion, the running, the retreating.So many places I have failed, so many things I have run from and numbed. I released all You gave me….at first, possibly for the best things You gave me, thinking it was at Your leading.Continue reading “why the secret heart”
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a willing spirit
Restore to me the joy of Your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit. Then I will teach transgressors Your ways and sinners will return to You. (Psalm 51:12-13)When the want-to returns, the trembling comes with it.I know the call well. I loved it so. But now…A bit harder to walk forward as bold- asContinue reading “a willing spirit”
a lament
Oh Lord, such a hard yearso battle wearywe are weak and bloodybut herewe are barely able to standor even to see through the fogthe pain still comes in wavesand the sadness wedges deepnone were left unaffectedit’s hard to help themwhen my own flesh fails medrowning in tearsexhausted and frailbut You are ableYour strength can fillYourContinue reading “a lament”
fear of the broom
Though sound asleep and snoring, when I reach for the broom and dust pan, my dog goes into full-on dread mode. She paces the house and continually comes to watch me sweep with fear in her eyes. Now, she has never been hit or harmed in any way by the broom and dustpan, yet sheContinue reading “fear of the broom”
dad
grief. the small awkward word seems so inadequate to contain the emotions of loss.it is defined this way, Grief is a multifaceted response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone or something that has died, to which a bond or affection was formed. Although conventionally focused on the emotional response to loss, it also hasContinue reading “dad”