Plans cancelled, weddings cancelled, sporting events cancelled, memories we had hoped to make cancelled.
We feel robbed as COVID cancels all that matters to us. Even now, as we face holidays ahead that often provide gatherings that will likely be cancelled, we wince at the thought of more cancelled plans and hopes.
All the cancelling brings to mind one thing for which I am so grateful of its cancelling.
As a young woman, wife and new mom, I was moving in one direction at top speed: my own. Living for myself without purpose or direction. I had this new baby who I had assumed would be the best glue to keep the shaky one-year-old marriage together. My life-long insecurities were nearly strangling me most days. And though I had always dreamed of being a mom, suddenly the inability to do it perfectly was strangling me. Determination was not getting me very far.
Everything changed that first week of November in 2000, as I sat on my bed, Bible open in my lap. The scales fell from my eyes and I knew. It wasnt hard for me to recognize I was a sinner. It wasn’t hard to believe this Man lived. But suddenly I knew He lived and He died for me.
It was cancelled. That record of debt that stood against me, that held me blind to the Truth, that kept me running in my own direction looking for love, meaning, stability. That record of debt was cancelled.
You, who were dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of the flesh, God made alive together with Him, having forgiven us all our trespasses, by canceling the record of debt that stood against us with its legal demands. (Colossians 2:13-14 ESV)
Two decades ago this week, I surrendered my soul, the messy, selfish, unstable, desperately needy soul, to Jesus. He opened my eyes through the pages of His Word that day and redeemed an atheist girl drowning in self-created debts. He cancelled every legal demand the prince of darkness shouted against me. He brought me from death to life and I have been ruined for anything less since.
Even in seasons of sin and wilderness, the pull was strong, the Lord is relentless for HIs own. When He cancels the debt, it is complete. We then, are free to walk in that. Seeking to better know the One who knows me perfectly.
Again this morning I sat at His feet in gratitude of who He is and what He has done. Pressing into His Word again, listening to this One who seeks and redeems and cancels the debts of the messiest of sinners.
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